What Have I been up to Lately?
Hey, my loyal subscribers! Isn't it crazy how life just seems to fly by sometimes? We get so caught up in the day to day grind and checking boxes off daily to dos that we seem to forget that there are people out there that miss hearing from us, need a little inspiration from us, or just plain wanna make sure you didn't fall off the face of the earth. We are all guilty of this.
I will be the first to say, "I'm sorry I have been so lost". Well the good news is, I have quite the excuse. It's a good one, I promise. I didn't get attacked by a lion, or lock myself in a closet where no one could find me. I didn't go crazy leaving me no choice but to live in a mental institution with no wifi and I certainly didn't move to a commune to live with the real hippies, although that sounds really cool and it has definitely crossed my mind from time to time.
So the real reason I have been a bit out of touch is because something pretty big has happened. Something I was pretty sure was incapable of happening. But, God knew I was ready and knew I could handle this so....
Yup, it's true! I think I am still in shock myself sometimes. At this point, I am in my second trimester and I am halfway through this pregnancy, but that does not make it any less surreal. Sometimes, I just look around and think, "am I seriously having a baby?" "is this really happening?' But the reality is still the same, yes, yes I am having a baby! (Still feels weird to say)
THE FIRST TRIMESTER
The funny thing is, I actually went to the doctor for a completely different reason, but I peed in a cup and they took some blood and I went on my merry way. On the drive home, I got a phone call from the doctor, I was cruising down the road in my Jeep with the top down, almost home, so when I answered the phone I could barely hear her. I told her to hold on a minute so I could pull over. I pulled over into a school parking lot and I said, "I'm sorry, what did you say?!"
"Congratulations, you're pregnant!"
Ok, I'm sorry, WHAT?! I was pretty sure I couldn't have children, I ran to the pharmacy and grabbed a pregnancy test because I needed to see this with my very own eyes.
The directions say to pee on the stick, put the cap on and let it sit for 2 whole minutes. I thought I wouldn't be able to wait 2 minutes, but on the contrary, I actually wanted that 2 minutes to collect my thoughts. Forget it, I couldn't put the cap on fast enough before a plus sign already appeared. 2 minutes my A**.
Anyhow, before the dust could even settle, I was throwing up everything and had no appetite, literally just wanted to sleep my life away, I was so nauseous. A few days prior to visiting the doctor I wasn't feeling well, but I just assumed I had a headache or was dehydrated or something. So soon after peeing on the stick, things got real, real quick. I hated the smell of fish and beer among other things I love. I couldn't keep much down but when I actually was hungry, I had no idea what the heck I wanted. I felt so out of control of my own body.
Just a heads up for those of you who think pregnancy is so beautiful and you loved being pregnant and you were glowing and such, this post might not be for you, that is not my experience. I don't feel beautiful, I feel fat and uncomfortable and hungry but not hungry and tired but not tired, I don't even know what the Hell I want anymore.
Not to mention I thought I was going to be one of those super fit, adorable pregnant chics you see on Instagram, but noooooooooo, the thought of working out made me nauseous, I attempted a workout one morning and I followed it with my head in the toilet. Not my finest moment. But seriously, how was I going to workout if I couldn't eat and I was throwing up regardless? It just wasn't happening. So I cut myself some slack.
Before I knew it I was in the Second Trimester and had no idea how that time had passed, although I was happy because I was told the second trimester is when things get better. Get better? Excuse me, what about getting fat, my back hurting and my boobs getting so huge they feel like they could burst, being tired as hell but not being able to sleep is better?
Anyhow so here we are and I am not one of those cute fit pregnant chics. I feel like a whale, any definition I had built prior was long gone and sheesh I get winded walking up a flight of stairs. This is not okay.
I have tried, I would get up on a Monday morning and say, "this is the day" and I would head down to my gym and 10 minutes into whatever I was doing, I felt like I was dying. Who am I kidding? it was more like 2 minutes in. So the next day I would give myself a break, and the next day, and the next day, before I knew it every day was a rest day and I was getting nothing accomplished. But of course I couldn't call it quits without posting on social media how I'm pregnant and getting my workout in! Now, tell me again what your excuse is? (yea now I am just being hormonal, that's the nice way of saying "RUDE")
So, to put it bluntly, you want to know where I have been? I have been puking and sleeping, eating bad food (the baby likes sugar apparently) and not working out more than 1 or 2 days a week, and that's on a good week.
So what the heck else am I doing?
Stay tuned in the next post for those details!
Didn't think I'd give it to you all at once did you?